BTS: Walking on Bombshells
From: The Sylvia Plath in me
I take one step forward. I am very careful not to step in the wrong place. In fact I thought about it hours before
I even got here. How I have to take a step, no matter how
scared I am. The worry sets in. What if I step in the wrong place?
No matter, because wherever I step, tomorrow is coming, the
moment has trapped me, and any step I take will be wrong. I take
the step and the bomb goes off sending flying thorns piercing straight
through my veins, all of the blood and tears drained and dried.
I take one step forward. I am very careful not to step in the wrong place. In fact I thought about it hours before I even got here. How I have to take a step, no matter how scared I am.
Ever been around someone, where it feels like they're a ticking time bomb waiting to go off? A hungry caged animal waiting for the bars to break and attack? The fear sets in, yet no amount of fear will prevent time from moving.
The worry sets in. What if I step in the wrong place?
No matter, because wherever I step, tomorrow is coming, the
moment has trapped me, and any step I take will be wrong.
It doesn't matter what you say or do, they will be set off. They want to release all of the anger they've been holding inside. The chaos they're dying to ensue.
I take the step and the bomb goes off sending flying thorns piercing straight
through my veins, all of the blood and tears drained and dried.
You've taken the step, and the bomb has gone off destroying everything good in its wake.
I can really relate to this on both the literal metaphoric level. I just spent several days waiting for someone to go from mania to psychosis, when I could get some help from the police.
Literally, when I was canoeing through the Mekong and was sent off the boat into the muddy forest trying to gain Street level. The trees were posted with signs regarding unexploded ordinance, also known as bombs. The only thing that kept me from freaking out, was knowing that somebody had gone in there, posted those notices and lived to post some more.😘